You are supported by this planet. Every moment. Let’s be honest sometimes it feels like life is pushing against us but I can assure you the universe is always working for us, even when it feels otherwise. “Set backs” May be times to learn or lean inward or take you away from where you are no longer meant to be. I say this only from experience.
Last year I felt completely out of place, and I also felt like life was knocking me down every chance it had. From having a wisdom teeth surgery go horribly wrong turning into an incredibly painful infection, to my boyfriend I just moved in with cheating on me, to going to a shitty job I hated everyday constantly surrounding myself with people who didn’t get me, and losing one of the few who did to a random night of him getting hit by a car, and just when that all sounded like way to much, the restaurant I was working at caught on fire one morning, so I was out of a job. This all happened over the course of only a year.
I finally had enough. I was done suffering and I was done feeling powerless. I had been resisting the whole time but as soon as I took my power back and started changing little things day by day it got better and better. This can be incredibly difficult but instead of resisting it, let’s tune in to the guidance.
Think about the energy behind knowing you are right where you belong. You feel like you are connected to a path, a purpose and it’s all unfolding how it is meant to. Beautiful vibes basically.
Now think about the energy behind questioning where you are, where you are going and what you are meant to do next, but in a way where you convince yourself you don’t know what you’re doing, and you don’t trust yourself. This feels powerless, it feels yucky. Sometimes uncertainty can be exciting but overall if you are disconnected chances are you will end up confused and feeling constantly out of alignment.
We are humans, we are imperfect and made to run into obstacles and struggles BUT we deserve the feeling of love and belonging. This is everything for our human existence. It makes the tough times more bearable when you know you are loved, supported and right with the people that are meant for you.
This month I am diving deep into root chakra healing. Chakras are energy systems in our bodies and when one is off balance it throws off our energy. The root chakra is located at the base of your spine, and it is the very first chakra in your energy system. When it is out of wack and not balanced it will bring heaviness to your body, feelings of lack scarcity and fear are present, disconnection from your body, earth and the people around you. I mention this chakra here because this chakra really connected me back to feeling like I belonged, and that the earth was not only holding me but supporting me.
This chakra has been such a huge part of my healing because it has been the chakra most out of tune for me my entire life. I’ve struggled with my money mindset, I’ve struggled with feeling like I didn’t belong anywhere I turned, I’ve struggled with anxiety and escaping my body and I’ve felt extremely detached and distant from my family most of my life. These are all manifestations of an off balanced root chakra.
Connecting with this chakra and spending that time healing has been EVERYTHING. I can’t even tell you guys how unsafe I’d feel in my body. At times I had no idea where these feelings were coming from, all I knew is I felt out of place, and sometimes unsafe. This was the foundation of me feeling safe in my body again. After experiencing trauma a few years ago that I shoved down and never got over it felt like I was always out of place, and even out of my body.
Trauma will stay with you and it can run your life if you let it. I definitely was letting it run my life and I was making choices out of fear alone. Life is not meant to feel like this. We all deserve to belong, and we all deserve to be around people who know how to love us. If you feel out of place, if you feel like the people around you convince you that you’re hard to love, please, get the hell out of that life because it is not your life, most likely.
After picking up all the pieces of what had been my shitty life, I started to feel gratitude again. I started healing physically, mentally, emotionally, financially and spiritually. I slowly cut off people who didn’t get me, and didn’t try to. I started working for myself, and started creating again. It was a long journey but every step got me closer to where I knew I wanted to be. More than ever I know I am on the right path and I am now able to help others on theirs. This is such a gift and I don’t think I would have gotten here if it wasn’t for the unapologetic guidance of this universe.
Your life will fit perfect like your favorite outfit. You will thrive in the place you are meant to be and best of all you will have a sense of belonging. You will feel more loved and more seen than you maybe have ever in life. Trust me, it’s so worth it. And trust yourself, only you know where you are meant to go.
Diving Deep 